i couldn't recover from it, i swear i'm frightened.
i have heard nobody suffering this for so long. i saw a poster today. it said it could be an illness.
well...
four times of visits with doctors, none of them worked. she told me not to eat things i shouldn't, i had did what was told but till now, nothing seems to improve. "you may not even recover", she said.
is this gonna accompy me forever? i pray not. i'm almost used to it being within me now.
watch me smile and cry beneath. this is what i call life.
leave me your name.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007♠
children see. children do. so be good models.
i'm felt myself a lousy daughter, i can't even dig up time for Father's Day gift and brought a piece of shit. an ashtray. encouraging him to smoke eh.
and! i felt i'm a lousy runner... one round around school can leave jeanne dead.
thanks so much to Daniel, Gregory and Zhi kai! hehe! they found my thumb drive! they did signals behind my back, asking each other if i was crying haha! comical them!
i don't know why but i guessed my sister must had been killing time at office. she sent me exactly 16 similiar emails! omg.